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Artist draws self portrait everyday under influence of different drugs


It has been 23 years, Bryan Saunders‘ Drug-Influenced Self Portraits still garner contemplation on the internet. The artist had locked on to create at least one self-portrait every day and continue until the rest of his life.

From March 30th, 1995 he has created over 11,200 of them. Like fingerprints, snowflakes, and DNA they possess disparate properties. No two of his daily-self-portraits evoke similar features.

Artists, for hundreds of years, put themselves to represent the world around them. Whereas, Saunders believes in creating a paradoxical world. He places the world around him to represent himself. As he says, “I am more concerned with channeling experiences than I am collecting memories but I do both and much more.”

What’s inside an artist’s mind?

Creative minds, call it of an artist, a poet, a musician, or of a writer’s, are rarely tidy. The road to producing something unparalleled or exclusive is stuffed with inexhaustible rumination. Consequently, taking that imagination to reality require chewing over several predicaments. Over time, they are trapped in a cycle of undiagnosed mental health issues and addiction with mind-altering substances.

Saunders was another such artist who channels his anxious mind to visual art and musical performances. A way to deal with his demons.

He experimented with different drugs each day and sketched his portraits under its influence. The portraits narrate a powerful message- the power of addiction.

Here are some of the illustrations from his “Near Death Experience” album.

  1. Crystal Methartist on drugs

  2. Ablifyartist on drugs

  3. Absinthartist on drugs

  4. Adderallartist on drugs

  5. Bath saltsartist on drugs

  6. Busparartist on drugs

  7. Butane Honey Oilartist on drugs

  8. Cocaineartist on drugs

  9. Dilaudidartist on drugs

  10. Hashartist on drugs

  11. Heroin (Snorted)artist on drugs

  12. Huffin Gasartist on drugs

  13. LSDartist on drugs

  14. Marijuanaartist on drugs

  15. Morphinartist on drugs

  16. Ritalinartist on drugs

  17. Salvia Divinorum

    artist on drugs

  18. Valiumartist on drugs

  19. Viagraartist on drugs

Humanity is dead. Take care.


Skimming the morning newspaper and at the same time, scrolling the Facebook newsfeed is my daily bustle. As I quaff my morning tea, curiously, I asked my husband if he has any idea about what is taking both our newsfeed to a storm. I did not bother to read or click the links people had shared. When he swiped right to an office call, I leaf through the links, the shared posts, photos, and videos.

What grabbed my attention is the word “xupadhora,” in one of the posts. Subsequently, this reminds me of those afternoons at granny’s place when she would ask me to sleep. Refraining which, she would narrate stories about a xupadhora that roams the streets during afternoons and pick kids who disobey their elders. Quite a decade and I have bumbled on this word today.

Welcome to the rotten world of humanity

I didn’t watch the video because I could not. Because it was atrocious, because it narrated degraded humanity, because it exhibited a blood-starved lowbrow breed of beasts lynching two faultless youths.

Were they kidnappers? Or terrorists? Or did they rape anyone?


Their only fault was to visit a graceful village in Karbi Anglong (Assam) that was thronged with illiterate and uncultured psychopaths.

In conjunction, one will exasperate to learn that the duo was whipped to grave because the perpetrators “assumed” them to be (xupadhora) child traffickers.

Gruesome, how the two budding artists had to yell their identity, had to plead for their lives in their own land. How merciless have people become!

Wake up before time flies

The appalling incident of Nilutpol Das and Abhijit Nath pronounces not just the bitterness people hold for their fellow beings but also the dread of fabricated social media propaganda. This is disheartening to see how a culture of fear, abuse, bitterness, and retaliation that permeates too little of harmony, have prevailed in this society.

I will not mind if robots take over this planet in near future because humanity has given up the ghost. Those last words, “Moi Axomiya,” will haunt Assam in perpetuity.

Today it is someone’s son, tomorrow it might be your sibling, parent, or a friend. It is never too late for a noble stand. Fight against cruelty, against hatred, against violence, not against free minds. If this doesn’t wake you up, what will?

nilutpol Das Abhijit Nath



Coffee Lady’s Artistry of Peaberry Coffee


Affordable, Accessible & Available

Have you ever heard of the Peaberry coffee? It’s an exclusive and highly sought-after coffee that comes from a rare type of coffee bean that grows mostly in Africa, Latin America, and some parts of Asia. Recently, a brand called Coffeelady from Nagaland introduced its own version of Peaberry coffee, and it has been creating quite a stir in the coffee world.

Let’s take a closer look at Coffeelady’s Peaberry coffee

• Body: Light-Medium
• Acidity: Tangy/Medium
• Aroma: Fruity with notes of peaches and grapefruit
• Aftertaste: A delightful sweetness reminiscent of candy

Coffeelady’s Peaberry coffee stands out with its light-to-medium body, striking a delicate balance that brings out the best of its flavors. The tangy and medium acidity adds a lively and refreshing touch, making each sip an invigorating experience. The aroma of this coffee is delightful, featuring fruity notes of peaches and grapefruit that intertwine to create a vivid and lingering scent.

However, what truly sets Coffeelady’s Peaberry coffee apart is its captivating aftertaste. It leaves behind a sweet and satisfying lingering sensation, reminiscent of indulging in your favorite childhood candy. This unique aftertaste is sure to keep you coming back for more, offering an added layer of enjoyment to your coffee experience.

Peaberry coffee, in general, is known for its distinct flavor profile. Unlike traditional coffee beans, where two halves develop inside the coffee cherry, the Peaberry is formed when only one bean grows, allowing it to absorb more nutrients and develop a richer taste.

Coffeelady has capitalized on these rare and distinctive beans to create their Peaberry coffee, resulting in a coffee that offers an exclusive and unparalleled flavor experience.
Moreover, nestled in the northeastern region of India, Nagaland boasts a favorable geographical location for growing exquisite coffee. With its hilly terrain, optimal altitude, and a climate characterized by cool winters and moderate summers, Nagaland provides ideal conditions for coffee cultivation.

Over the years, the region has emerged as a thriving coffee-growing region, known for producing high-quality beans of various types, including the sought-after Peaberry coffee. The unique combination of the region’s soil, climate, and diligent farming practices results in coffee with exceptional flavors and characteristics.

Peaberry coffee from Nagaland stands out even further, as it is cultivated from rare, single beans that encapsulate the concentrated essence of flavor within their distinct shape. This makes Peaberry coffee from Nagaland a truly remarkable and delightful choice for coffee enthusiasts seeking a memorable and exquisite cup of coffee.

If you consider yourself a coffee aficionado who appreciates exploring new and extraordinary flavors, Coffeelady’s Peaberry coffee is a must-try. With its harmonious combination of light-medium body, tangy acidity, fruity aroma with hints of peaches and grapefruit, and a sweet candy-like aftertaste, this coffee delivers a remarkable and unforgettable coffee experience.

To savor the exceptional taste of Coffeelady’s Peaberry coffee, you can DM Coffeelady on their Instagram page or call +91 9863931357.

Indulge in a cup of this exclusive brew and allow it to take you on a flavorful journey like no other.

Don’t miss out on the opportunity to experience the world of Peaberry coffee with Coffeelady – a truly remarkable discovery in the coffee industry!

Romanticizing the female menstrual cycle


A great number of articles on women seeking gender rights, or a feminist trying to clear the clouds of hypocritical blurs, revolve around the web almost every day. From dawn to dusk, you will definitely stumble across a piece of news or even a placard in social media, of a female seeking her rights, complaining against the odds of the chauvinist society she lives in, and more. There are a number of stories that narrate the skeptical mindsets of the society overlooking a girl as an object of malediction- be it her clothes, her way of interacting with people, her thoughts and ideas, or her personal affair.

“Menstruation,” snared in a paradoxical affair of curiosity, ignorance, exaggerated abhorrence, and stereotypical beliefs is one of those popularly romanticizing words of all centuries. Remember how our mothers would abstain us from going out or indulge in outdoor activities during those days?

However, a recent news about a woman named Kiran Gandhi jaw dropped everyone when she completed 26.2 miles running for London Marathon during her periods, bleeding freely with blood-soaked thighs without a tampon. She did it as a means to raise awareness for those women, who lack basic reach to feminine care products.

But menstruation is still a taboo in India

The Ambubasi Mela, which is being celebrated in the advent of monsoon, is a celebration of “Menstruation of Mother Earth”. During this period, the female cycle is being celebrated and worshiped. But in other days, it lies in the dark tunnels of societal norms, frightened and dejected.

In many regions of the country, a menstruating woman is treated like an “outcast.” Once on my visit to granny’s place, I had noticed my aunt staying aloof from the rest of the family members. On being asked, she claimed of having her periods and that for about five days she shall have to wake up before dawn, sweep the house, wash all the clothes she had touched, abstain herself from religious stuff, from the  kitchen, even out of homes, eat on separate utensils and sleep on the floor.

Oh! Haven’t you noticed how the shopkeepers wrap the sanitary pad packet with 2-3 layers of newspaper and handing it on a black-colored polyethylene bag, despite the fact that the pad making companies manufacture with sealed packages (of course not broken or singled out)?

What’s so fancy about period blood?

We live in a society where social media can accept Kim Kardashian’s nude pictures but not the menstruation blood. An earlier hype made by a temple official’s sexist comment “Women would be allowed access to temples only if the machine that can detect her purity would be invented” outraged a section of the society to protest against his sickening statement with #HappyToBleed campaign.

In another instance, an Instagram picture of a woman with stains of period blood on her pant portrayed the gross mindset of people, when the website censored and removed her post twice, claiming a violation of their policy guidelines.

It is said that during Ambubasi, Mother Earth is extremely powerful and is in a process of regenerating and purifying her body. She is being bathed, dressed with new clothes and served with whole devotion. The Prasad (blood-soaked pieces of clothes) distributed on the fourth day is considered as sacred and is being kept in temples or other worshiped areas of the house.

Unveiling the secret

During those times, a female is often seen prohibited from doing physical activities or moving out of the house. Know why? Let me break the ice.

In olden days, it was believed that doing physical activities such as cycling, playing, or engaging in outdoor activities may break their hymen, the “purity claiming license” of a female; which would eventually pull them to the dock. Typically, concealed under layers of vague beliefs, the underlying truth is that exercising or involving in physical activities like hitting the gym, engaging in yoga and meditation ( except for the inverted postures), is actually beneficial in boosting mood, killing extra fatigue, and lessening the symptoms of period cramps.

A woman is never impure when she bleeds. It is a natural process that rejuvenates a female’s womb, making way for a divine life. Instead of nurturing the misogynist beliefs, pamper her during those days. And ladies, when you have won the race against those 100 million sperms and dared to break the amniotic sac to find your place on this earth, why do you hesitate to break the face of stereotypical beliefs if it hinders your way?

Call of the Colliery



Amid the fast running and incessantly competing world, we could barely realize when we lose our existence and become one of those prime partakers in the race of survival. Thus, it becomes an essential responsibility to take a break and breath for a while.

I have always made it a point to take a small weekend break whenever it’s possible and come back rediscovering myself over and over again. While hanging out in a cafe in Guwahati, three of us friends were planning one such revitalizing weekend trip. Options like Cherapunjee, Shillong, Tawang, Ziro flashed out in our minds. But I was thinking of doing it off the beat this time.

Why go to the same common places where we have already been so many times! Suddenly something popped up in my head. I flashed back to one of the school picnics we were taken to, a place called Tipong, near Margherita. It was in the year 2002. The lovely place surrounded by gorgeous hills and frothy streams came alive in my imagination. And we decided to relive that school picnic again; this time in a better and more elaborate fashion, and for three days.

DAY 1:

Summer was at its peak in Guwahati. We packed our bags and boarded the evening train to Tinsukia at 7:45pm. Three of us snored away the 13-hour train journey overnight, and we finally reached Tinsukia the following morning around 9am. Following some refreshment at a nearby restaurant, we hired a cab to the small town of Margherita.

The small town in Upper Assam is merely 50kms from Tinsukia. But the views are breathtaking! As we crossed the town of Makum, and were gradually approaching Margherita via the NH 38, we witnessed a road that was no less than a spectacle.

Our car raced along a geometrically precise straight road with the deep green lustrous tea gardens festooned on both the sides of the road. In fact, the road is considered to be one of the longest stretches of straight roads in the world.Digboi-tipong

Driving through that stretch would any day be paradisiacal. I soaked myself in the sights, sounds, and smell of nature that pervaded the journey. Following one of the most pleasing drives, we finally reached Margherita at around 12pm. We checked in at Hotel Bluemoon on the NH 38 because of its strategically convenient location. By then we started feeling jaded and realized that we were starving. So, we took a quick shower and went to the Singpho Villa restaurant, famous for ethnic delicacies.

And the Villa stood up to its fame! The steamed rice wrapped in an aromatic leaf called Tora paat, the chicken salad and the traditional Singpho pork curry simply blew our senses. As we walked out of the ethnically designed huts of Singhpho Villa, our filled appetites promised to head back to the place soon.

From there, we decided to take a trip up to the oil town Digboi, which is only 17kms from Margherita. To be specific, we took a trip to the Digboi centenary Museum. Located close to the Historic Discovery Well No. 1 in Digboi, this museum is a one of its kind in India.

DAY 2:

Day two started with a heavy breakfast as we expected some desolate hours in the unconventional area of Tipong. Looking forward to reliving that school picnic, we packed our lunch boxes and set out to explore and embrace the tranquility of Nature.


Tipong Colliery is located near the Assam-Arunachal Pradesh border, and is operated by the North Eastern Coalfields division of Coal India Ltd. It is listed among the operational underground and opencast collieries in the Makum coalfield, which was first commercialized by the Assam Railways and Trading Company in the 1880s. The coal mines were nationalised in the year 1973. Tipong is only 20kms from Margherita. Hence it took us hardly 40 minutes to reach the area in our cab. Tipong is unconventionally beautiful.

The medium hills, the thick wood, and the river crisscrossing at the bottom of a steep valley are nothing less than eye-soothers! The colliary that remained suspended for a while was about to be re-opened shortly during our visit. The broken metre gauges were under reconstruction. And the haggard little coal trains were getting a new makeover. It was an entirely new experience to explore the old tainted machineries used in the colliery. Imagining the kind of work that must have been carried out in the colliery with the help of those machines brought about a feeling of joy and amusement. How it must be to witness the work there, I thought!

The Tipong colliery has a community life respond of its own consisting of hillside housings, schools, Hindu temples, mosque, shops, post office etc. And how can I not mention about the beautiful picnic spots, the memory of one of which is still ingrained in my mind since childhood.


The surrounding hills, the deep green woods, and the shallow streams flowing over a legion of river stones, make for a surreal experience. As our eyes scanned through the wild timbers and berries and the captivating aroma of the wild orchids and dancing butterflies, “Aaahh……Paradise on Earth” was what went whirling in our minds. We paved ways towards the narrow pathway that opened up to the stream. SPEECHLESS!

For the next few minutes we stood there numb and dumb. It was like the scenario from Keats’ “Ode to Autumn” that unfurled before us. With the August sun blazing over us, surrendering my body full flat into the stream was a welcome relief! The clear cool water of the stream coupled with the rustling sound of the leaves had a spa-like effect on all the senses. We sat in silence listening to the sounds of Nature, breathing in deep and absorbing the quiet depth of the surroundings.

The silence was broken by a curious passerby who stopped by us and indulged in a friendly acquaintance, telling us about the whereabouts of the locality. A while later, a few other locals joined us too. While sharing our lunch box with them, the extremely amiable and effervescent locals introduced us to their ethnic food habits, especially the rice been It was during our lunch together that we got to know from then about the suspended colliery waiting to get resumed soon! It was heart-warming to see how excited the locals were about the restart of the colliery. It appeared as if their dreams and aspirations were deeply rooted to the resumption of the colliery.

The trip to Tipong surely broke my myth that the summers aren’t cool in the plains. When the endowments of Nature are respected, nature blesses us back. Following a full day of rejuvenation at the Tipong colliery, we made our way back to our hotel in Margherita in the evening.

DAY 3:

We packed our bags and made our way back to the town of Tinsukia. We decided to put up for the day in the tea town dedicated to shopping, good food and movies at the ATC Mali. While the day passed off spending some fun buddy time together, we boarded the train to Guwahati at 8pm the same day. The 3-day trip was enough to pump me up for another few months of non-stop labor and mundane life before my mind, body and heart called for another weekend break.


Submitted by: Abhijit Boruah

Edited by: Satarupa Mishra

The Sunshine Blogger Award- 2018




The Sunshine Blogger Award is given to those bloggers who are creative, optimistic, and inspiring while spreading sunshine to the blogging community. And, Yass…!!! This is my first nomination to Sunshine Bloggers Award.

Oh, won’t it be rude if I do not offer my gratitude to my nominator?

So, thank you so much, Rahul, the man behind this mesmerizing travel blog, Inside Out with Rahul Yuvi. This is truly overwhelming.

But before rolling over my 11 super-duper answers asked by my fellow blogger, why not brush through the rules once?

  1. Thank the Blogger who nominated you in the blog post add their link in your post.
  2. Answer the 11 questions which your nominator asked you.
  3. Nominate up to 11 new bloggers for the award and write them 11 new questions for the same.
  4. Let your nominees know that they have been nominated.
  5. List the rules and add the Sunshine Blogger Award in your post.

And, here goes my answers:

Q.1 Why exactly did you took to blogging?

Ans- During my school days, I was inclined toward my grammar classes more than the other subjects. There are also instances when I failed to score even the minimum marks in the other subjects while scoring full marks in dictation and grammar.

Gradually, I started scribbling my life events in the form of poetries and stories, adding fictional elements of interest. With time and introduction to numerous blogs, I decided to store my mind in the virtual world of words.

Q.2 How has blogging changed you as an individual?

Ans– Blogging enhanced my writing style. It introduced me to numerous methods, use of proper punctuations, grammar, and so on. But more importantly, it helped dispatch my thoughts to the world.

Q.3 Name 1 blogger in your friend circle who you think has got best writing skills?

Ans– I do not have a friend whom I can consider a good blogger. But there are many great content writers in my circle.

Q.4 Do you plan to earn through your blogs in near future? If yes, then what are best strategies that you gonna deploy for your subject plan to be successful?

Ans– I am already earning. However, further strategies would include maintaining my consistency in writing every day and give my viewers better content to keep them engaged.

Q.5 How do you keep yourself motivated for writing at the time when the traffic at your blog is really low?

Ans– That’s where the real game lies. There are times when my blog’s traffic goes extremely down. But I never get disappointed during those times. Self-motivation is the key.

Q.6 What according to you is best and why – a blog should be unilateral (say exclusively Travel or exclusively Food) or it should be flexible with multi – categories?

Ans– Depends on the blogger/writer whether he/she wants to keep it exclusive or be open to numerous categories.

Q.7 What is average monthly traffic on your blog? How do you plan to increase the same?

Ans– It keeps fluctuating. I don’t want to share it right now. ?

Q.8 Tell a little about who you exactly are (150 words max.)


-Sometimes sane, mostly in my dilapidated mind, wondering about things that barely matters.

-A caffeine craver who wants her coffee and husband, hot.

– A procrastinator who has mastered the subject

– A layman artist who hates perfection

Q.9 How would you rate my Blog “Inside Out with Rahul Yuvi ” on a scale on 10? Mention a few words in support of your ratings.

Ans– 7.5. Noticed few grammatical errors and unnecessary lengthy sentences. But you have a long way to go. My best wishes for your further endeavors, dear blogger.

Q.10 Do you plan to quit the job and take to full-time blogging? If Yes, then what are your survival plans? If No, then why not?

Ans– I am already a full-time blogger. The initial days were brimmed with hopelessness and totally zero motivation. I was afraid to speak my mind. Precisely, was afraid of being judged by the world.

Over time, I learned how to handle things with patience and importantly, how to face criticisms. So now, it’s all about jumping into the ocean and search for treasures (without getting drowned of course).

Q.11 Name 3 best bloggers  (mention link to their blogs) that you have come across so far.

Ans– I am yet to discover those three. But I really enjoy reading Living Foodz’s articles.

And here, I nominate 11 other bloggers whose works are indeed worth reading.

  1. Style Rug
  2. Travel Food Fitness
  3. B.E. Style
  4. Brave Girl Spirit
  5. Travel my Nation
  6. Alive Shadow
  7. My Cooking Canvas
  8. Desi Travelers
  9. The Urban Minstrels
  10. Super Mom
  11. Memsahib In India

Congratulations to all the nominees

Please Refer to the Rules  mentioned above once again before proceeding

Here are your questions:

  1. Why do you blog?
  2. What strategies do you implement to increase your blog’s visibility to your audience?
  3. What is important- good content or lengthy content/long post?
  4. Favorite blog post you’ve ever written
  5. Have you collaborated with any brand yet? If not, who would you like to have on board with you?
  6. What are you good at? Mention at least three characteristics
  7. How often do you update your blog?
  8. Who do you look up to as an inspiration? (Can mention blogger, friend, acquaintance, website, or anything)
  9. Which social media is best to boost your blog according to you?
  10. What is your biggest regret from life?
  11. How will you describe my blog (in a sentence or two)?

I look forward to reading all of my nominee’s posts.

Until next time,

Be my friend?

Just DM or follow, I shall revert.




Elon Musk and tales of his Giant Falcon Heavy


Falcon Heavy, the world’s most powerful rocket, which was launched on 6th February, brought in enormous buzz worldwide. The giant machine, designed by SpaceX, a United States’ based organization, soared from the Kennedy Space Center in Florida.

Elon Musk Falcon Heavy

Elon Musk, CEO and chief designer of SpaceX said that this machine is twofold heavier than Delta IV Heavy, the world’s next most giant rocket. But what amused and caught the attention of people globally is that no satellites or astronauts were used to start off with the machine.

The launch garnered a massive trail of curiosities across the web when Mr. Musk decided to send a space-suited mannequin strapped in the driver’s seat of his old cherry-red Tesla sports car instead.

Elon Musk Falcon Heavy

Musk himself was surprised how his trick worked efficiently. He regularly fed his millions of followers about the progress and headway of the machine. However, the videos of a dummy astronaut floating in the space did not just project radicality of his mind but also a sheer genius of this century.

Elon Musk Falcon Heavy

In his tweet, he said, “Evidently, there is an auto in a circle around Earth.” In fact, the dashboard was stamped with “Made on Earth by humans,” probably for the aliens. Surprisingly, even the speakers of his Telsa echoed tunes of David Bowie. However, two of the three boosters landed safely while one of them crashed into the Atlantic at 300mph.

Elon Musk Falcon Heavy

Who is Elon Musk?

Elon Musk

Elon Reeve Musk, founder, CEO, and chief designer of SpaceX is also the product creator of Telsa Inc., founder and CEO of Neuralink, The Boring Company, Co-founder of PayPal, SolarCity, Zip2, and is the chairperson of OpenAl.

A business magnate, engineer, and inventor, Musk was ranked 21st in the Forbes list of The World’s Most Powerful People in December 2016. He was also listed #12th Richest in Tech by Forbes.

Check out animated version of The Falcon Heavy here View of Falcon Heavy from SpaceX Launch Control


The Boy With a Rainbow Heart


Gay, LGBT, Guwahati


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Amid the dark alleys and illuminated cities, there is a section of folk trapped in the woes of prejudices, humiliation, and stigma. They are often interrogated with bizarre curiosities, gawked at their appearance and gestures, judged for carrying themselves uniquely, and particularly, for not matching rhythms with the general public. Yes, I am talking about the LGBTQ community.

“The presence of the third gender has numerous evidence throughout history. Significant books like Kamasutra or the Rig Veda holds accounts on such, yet people of the present day do not want to accept us.” Romi muttered with a long sigh.

As I take my second bite of paratha, Annie ba (Romi’s sister) narrated how ruthlessly passerby rebuke or look down upon at her brother, as if he were an alien. She, despite knowing about her brother’s interest in makeup, dolls, and pink, acknowledges his preferences and treasure his needs wholeheartedly.

Gay, LGBT, Guwahati, romi

Unlike his peers, who confine themselves to certain limitations in regard to their sexuality, Chow Poran J. Gogoi, also known as Romi, despise leading a pretentious life.

“My life holds a series of unfortunate events interlaced by melancholy.” As he talked in detail about others from his niche, I didn’t lose the chance to learn in-depth about his life, about this life- often unheard, secretive, and full of mystery and myths.

Here is the not-so-quick question set that he replied without any hesitation.

A very basic question, when did you first realize that you are a gay?

I never realized or had this idea that I was different from the rest. It is a feeling that was given to me by this society. According to them, I did not fit in their shoes. For them, I was neither a straight man nor a straight woman.

Precisely, during my growing stage, I felt an inclination toward my feminine side more. I felt I am trapped in a wrong body. Things were very indistinct. I was in class 9 or 10 when the internet came in Guwahati. After I researched numerous websites, finally found out that I am different from others or probably others are different from me.

How was the struggle during those initial times?

It was like fighting with your own self. You have an inner feeling that constantly tells you that you are normal and absolutely all right. But then when you have to prove yourself or act a certain way to make others happy, a perpetual battle between your own psyche and existence drink you down entirely. It was such a depressing phase. It broke me completely. I even tried to kill myself. I would just do anything to be invisible.

My parents’ demise, on the other hand, compounded more fuel to the flames. When people ask me about my happy moments from childhood, I literally have to think. It’s a phase that I don’t want to recall.

Gay men are often projected or considered hyper-sexual. Is it true?

Gay men are more visible. Men, compared to a woman, are much more active, sexually. While heterosexuals celebrate their sexuality openly, gay men do not have the same liberty. They have to put the kibosh on their desires and wants. Thus, in an attempt to convey their feelings, they often end up being perceived as sexual connotation by others.

How is the scenario in Guwahati?

We have a very strong community in Guwahati but not everyone wants to come out. Some are open, some are not. We even gather for get together to share our spaces. Gay men from different background attend these meetings, talk about their issues, and discuss about creating awareness among general public.

What happens in such gatherings?

Gatherings like these are mostly about empowering this community with emotional support. People talk about their feelings and celebrate this life. Here, the members of LGBTQ break all restrains and connect to their own self.

Do straight men approach you?

Oh, very much. *giggles* Almost 98% of men who had flirted with me, are straight men. Maybe because they consider me a girl or probably find me trustworthy. I enjoy those attention very much. *laughs*

Have you tried making out with a girl? How did it go?

Well, yes. I did this social experiment when I was 18. She said it will be fun. After the initial step, it became difficult for me to hold on to it and we dropped the idea halfway.

Why do gay men talk or act with gestures that are too much feminine?  Are there any rules that gays have to act in a certain way? Is it attention seeking? Or is it some sort of practice?

This is no rule, practice, or attention seeking. Not all, but some gay men feel that their body is very fragile and soft. Even if they speak or move, it will be very rhythmic and soft. They are way too soft. That’s extreme girly and happens naturally, mostly with gay men who are overmuch in touch with their feminine side.

I have seen that most makeup artists or fashion designers who are gay are loud, rebellious, and emphatic. Why is it so?

Initially, I was vulnerable and angry, made both jaded and wary by my solitary life. But with time, I have learned to depress and ignore those mocks and taunts. But some gay men are fed up with regular suppression and ridicules. Eventually, they become boisterous and loud and are laced with profanity. They don’t give a damn. If they like someone, they will profess, no matter how obscene it appears to the other person.

Some are being patient, waiting for a miracle to happen whereas some have accepted the fact that no miracle is going to happen. Society is never going to change so they should be as bad to them as they are.

How helpful is Assam Government toward the LGBT community?

*Laughs* Assam government doesn’t even have a freaking clue about LGBT. There is no help from the government. They don’t know about LGBTQ. The pride rally that happens every year, is nothing less than a joke for them. And louse Assamese media, for the sake of creating a sensational news, would bombard with obnoxious questions like “What are you doing? Why are you parading? What are all these masks and makeups about? Oh, these guys want their rights.”

That’s it.

Ever given a chance, will you prefer a sex change operation?

There are numerous risks associated with such surgeries. And even if you get your sex change operation done, you won’t be considered a woman. You will be considered a trans woman, leading to only a fistful of men approaching you for marriage.

Sex change operation is something that not every gay men desires. It is a personal choice. I would not want to opt for sex change. I am happy with my body. But kudos to the ones who dare to take such risks.

What kind of remarks do you receive from people while stepping out of home?

People stare at me, every time. And staring is something I can’t stand. I even tried putting on the beard, still, people stare. Even when I am not putting makeup or wearing my pink skirt with a pink pouch, people gawk at me.

There was a time when I badly wanted to be popular, wanted to be seen, wanted people to know me. But now, I literally want to be invisible.

How do you respond to people’s curiosities?

Oftentimes, people ask me how it feels like being a gay. I say I feel like a mutant, I feel fantastic. People are so much curious to know what I do in bed, how I do it. People even ask me how I perform in bed. It was so uncomfortable when in an interview I was asked how sexual intercourse takes place between two men.

Would you like to mention a humiliating moment of your life?

I was called to judge a fashion show. As always, I was dressed up in a flamboyant manner. While the other two judges were duly felicitated, I was overlooked. They forgot to felicitate me, and I was standing there for nearly 20 minutes. Then later, they are like “Oh we have one more judge with us.” It was such humiliating for me. Had I not been open about my sexuality, I would have got the same amount of respect as the rest. Such things, when they occur at the initial stages of one’s career, breaks their self-esteem completely.

Gays are often assumed as predators of sex. Can you explain this why?

If people see a girl and a boy holding hands or kissing in public, they will let it fall between the cracks. But in cases of gays or transgenders, if people find them holding hands, they will create a huge ruckus.

If I like a guy and try to pass a comment or flirt with him, like any other human, it is so normal for me. I was only trying to make a connection. Trying to tell him that look at me, I am interested in you. But to the other person, it appears as if I am approaching him for sex. At times, when I compliment a guy that he’s cute or hot, he’ll be like “How dare you to call me hot.” But if a girl says that, he will take it as a compliment.

Do you think people’s mindset toward this community has changed over the years?

Things have rather turned sour with time, largely due to its grotty projection and people’s ignorance. Gay men are frequently being exhibited in the Indian entertainment industry as a travesty. Whenever there’s a funny, hilarious, or embarrassing moment, gays are being placed with a funny background music. We were never projected in a respectable manner. People think gay men are nothing but an object of ridicule or mockery.

What do you expect from the government?

Create more awareness about LGBTQ. If the government start speaking about it, the mass will follow anyway. There should be certain public forums or mediums where people from urban or rural areas both, can know about the difference and division. If section 377 get abolished and people start talking about it openly, they will get to know about our existence and in fact, several traditional beliefs will get dissolved over time.

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People should know that being a gay (a lesbian, bisexual, or a transgender) is not contagious. It is not a disease, a phase, a decision, or a life choice. We are born this way.

And supporting gay rights will not make anyone a gay. People should be more tolerant, kinder, and acceptable. They should broaden up and accept us because we have and want to offer so much to this society.

Describe your life.

My life is nothing less than a melodramatic movie. It is such unfortunate that even if I like someone or want to make out with him, things have to be under wraps. I can’t talk about my love life. If I like someone, I can’t express it. Had I put my love life on social media, I would be slapped with criticisms and insults. It has become tiresome now. Eventually, I feel deserted. Whatever stamina or energy is left, I apply it in my chores.

What gives you happiness?

Being honest with myself and sleeping sound at the end of the day, knowing that I haven’t lied to the people around me, knowing that I am pure and true to my very existence. For me, breathing with layers of lies and secrets underneath is frightful.

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Dejected, depressed, and oppressed, people from the LGBTQ community often face the wrath of societal prejudices. This community has an abundance to offer the world. But despite their substantial attributes in numerous grounds, they always have to crawl in the vicious cycle of abuse and mere mockery at the end of the day.

Every time you see a loud and rebellious person from this community, remember, it’s you who made him/ her like this. Everyone deserves to be loved. Respect and see magic happen.


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Beans to Brews: Explore Coffee Lady’s World of Brewing Excellence

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In the heartland of Nagaland, a captivating aroma wafts through the air, drawing coffee lovers and curious souls alike to a place where coffee isn’t just a beverage but a passionate journey curated by the Coffee Lady of Nagaland, Miss Atsi Jamir.

Atsi, the brainchild behind this extraordinary coffee venture, embarked on her odyssey into the world of coffee in 2019. It was then that she established her very own specialty coffee cafe in Medziphema, a quaint town nestled amidst Nagaland’s natural beauty. Fuelled by her unwavering enthusiasm for coffee, Atsi has transformed her pretty little cafe into a hub of coffee expertise.

With qualifications rooted in the deep knowledge of coffee from both the United States and India, Atsi’s journey has been a meticulous quest to perfect her craft. A notable feather in her cap is her certification from the Specialty Coffee Association in Irvine, California, an accolade that makes her Nagaland’s sole certified female coffee expert.

However, what truly sets Atsi apart is her commitment to nurturing coffee culture in her homeland. Atsi, who believes in “embracing the beauty of simplicity and nurturing community needs” has left her mark as a professional barista, sharing her wisdom in Kohima and Dimapur. At the same time, her current endeavors see her collaborating with and training coffee farmers in Mon, Mokokchung, and Dimapur districts. Atsi’s expertise spans the entire coffee value chain, from the cultivation and processing of coffee beans to the art of brewing and the diligent pursuit of quality control.

Here are the five core areas where the Coffee Lady brand shines:

Barista Training Programs

At the heart of Coffee Lady’s mission is the commitment to imparting knowledge. The brand offers comprehensive Barista Training Programs, equipping coffee enthusiasts with skills in brewing techniques, espresso preparation, latte art, and the art of exceptional customer service.

Business Planning for Coffee Cafes

Coffee Lady extends a helping hand to budding coffee entrepreneurs. Atsi and her team assist in developing effective strategies for coffee establishments. They optimize operations, enhance customer experiences, and provide invaluable insights to drive profitability.

Special Services

Coffee Lady specializes in crafting unique and personalized brewing experiences. They guide sourcing high-quality coffee beans and curating exceptional coffee moments that leave a lasting impression.

In-Depth Equipment Recommendations

Choosing the right equipment is crucial in the world of coffee. Coffee Lady offers technical knowledge and guidance on selecting the perfect equipment for consistent quality and operational efficiency.

Virtual-Strategy and Training Sessions

Coffee Lady believes in continuous improvement. After project completion, they provide virtual sessions to track success and refine operations. Through strategy discussions and targeted training programs, they ensure that excellence becomes a habit.

Here’s What You Can Expect in a Pouch of Coffee Lady

Besides an aroma-filled cup and the freshness of the Naga hills, here are a few things that make Coffee Lady a distinctive brand.

  • A Passionate Pioneer: Atsi Jamir, the visionary behind Coffee Lady, isn’t just an entrepreneur; she’s a passionate pioneer. Her coffee journey started not as a business venture but as a genuine love affair with coffee. This authentic passion infuses every aspect of Coffee Lady’s operations, creating a brand deeply rooted in a love for the craft.
  • A Commitment to Community: Unlike many other coffee brands, Coffee Lady doesn’t merely source its beans; it nurtures them. Atsi’s involvement in training coffee farmers in Nagaland is a testament to the brand’s commitment to empowering local communities and ensuring the sustainability of coffee cultivation.
  • A Taste of Nagaland: Coffee Lady’s specialty blends and curated coffee experiences offer a taste of Nagaland’s rich culture and natural beauty. They seamlessly blend global coffee expertise with local flavors, creating a truly unique coffee experience that can’t be replicated elsewhere.

In a world where coffee brands can sometimes feel indistinguishable, Coffee Lady emerges as a shining example of what sets a brand apart. It’s not just about the coffee; it’s about the passion, community, and unwavering commitment to excellence that infuse every cup and every consultation. Coffee Lady isn’t just a brand; it’s an experience that leaves a lasting imprint on the coffee world. With their expertise and attention to detail, they are dedicated to delivering results that speak of quality and excellence in every cup.

Currently, they are available in a few stores in Nagaland, however, you can also place your order by directly messaging them on their Instagram handle, @coffeelady_coffee.

Hope you have an amazing Coffee Lady experience.

Why are Zouk’s bags an ideal choice for every trendsetter woman


Accessories within an accessory! Isn’t it just fascinating? Yes, Zouk’s bags are all about spacious compartments, elegance, and sturdiness.

Women, over time, have evolved with their possessions. They have become more precise and strident with their choices. Be it their life decisions or petty preferences, the color or quality of a particular product, they are much oriented than before.

You will hardly come across a woman who hasn’t matched her outfit with her accessories or paired her perfectly manicured nails with her jewelry. From their floral scrunchies to their motif handbags and plaid footwear, they cherish every belonging with pride. 

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Conversely, with several prominent brands rolling in the market, there’s a gamut of options to embrace. While some may prefer contemporary quirky designs and colors, some may find classic patterns and shapes intriguing. There’s a sea of choices to favor. In any case, it has become a challenge for brands to meet the expectations and demands of their target group. 

However, Zouk’s timeless bags are unmatchable beauties. For the trendsetter woman, Zouk’s collection, ranging from pretty slings, backpacks, tote, office bags, laptop, and handbags are an absolute muse. Read on!

Zouk’s bags- the perfect piece to adorn any occasion

Create that seamless statement with the varied flo motif, Mughal motif, or abstract patterned bags that are just perfect to dazzle any occasion. Stylish yet affordable, the handbags give an absolute experience to express yourself amid the crowd. 

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Moreover, the bags are designed keeping in mind one’s daily convenience. So, don’t worry if you have to carry your beauty essentials, sanitizer, extra masks, wipes, chocolates, and more to the parties or office meetings. Zouk holds it all. 

What the modern women prefer vs what do Zouk offer

Accessories within an accessory! Isn’t it just fascinating? 

Gone are those days when women looked out for just bags to carry their essentials. Now, they lookout for a number of aspects. Of course, everyone loves pockets in their dresses and a lot more pockets and compartments in their bags!

From being the trendy pick to incorporating all the key features like being spacious, lightweight, sturdy handles, pretty designs, and having generous pockets, Zouk is simply the best choice for anyone who is looking to invest in a good handbag.

And more for the office goers

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Most women spend their time out of home or in the office. Accordingly, a bag that is functional, sturdy, as well as elegant is something women always hunt for. This flo motif laptop bag comes with a detachable strap which makes it versatile. The padded laptop compartment inside along with front, back, and inbuilt pockets make it an ideal laptop bag, office bag, messenger bag, and daily use bag.

More about Zouk’s bags

Talking about sturdiness, Zouk’s bags are made of 100% vegan leather. That is, they are PETA-approved, completely cruelty-free, and responsible. So, when you are grabbing affordable handbags online from Zouk, you are buying ethically manufactured products that hurt no one.

Luxury to fast fashion, the trend of chicest handbags is bucking up. And Zouk, with its high-end styles in vogue, is reveling in all the attention. After all, won’t you cheer for a bag that holds your big club sandwich, a laptop, your scribble notepads, all your skin essentials, and also that pair of extra sleepwear for your weekend sleepover plan with your bestie!?

Note: Check out https://zouk.co.in for more bags and accessories.